It was a chance experience, nothing else. It was not ordained by Cupid, nor did his arrows pierce either person involved. that being said, It started out from a mistake. A poor judgment, and mostly on my part. I, being in somewhat of a hurry after turning in my test paper, tried to go around two girls that were trying to find a paper they had turned in. as I stepped off the platform, she turned around with the same thought in mind, and at the same place I was. Needless to say, this wasnt going to work. Unless she or I, developing some sort of superhuman power or reaching some sudden stage of Enlightenment, developed a sudden ablitity to phase through the other, preventing collision. It was unaviodable, in hindsight. To say that we caught each others eye would be untrue, because she cast a quick glance at me, and I did not turn around to completely face her, so she could only see my left eye, and that not very welll. Then it happened. At the same time, in the same voice that completetly lacked all emotion, we muttered the SAME exact sentence to one another.
Yes, that phrase was what opened up my eyes to the truth of the situation. We simply both said what we felt was socially required of us, so that niether of us would fall into the category of "prick" or "jerk" or some of the other not-so-nicely-named forums. Not a big deal? What does that have to do with anything? Everything.
Social requirements. Ways to behave (or more so in my case NOT behave) in public settings. Little things to do or say so that we will not be labeled as outcasts of Etitcate (I dont know how to spell that word) What does it all have to do with us? It resricts us of true freedom from ourselves. In doing so, we must admit that we are not free to make our own decisions the way we truly want. proof? I really didnt care if she granted me excuse to HER intrusion of MY space. And while I make no claim to read thoughts, I have the feeling that she felt the same. Yet we each did something we did not feel like we should have to. We fell slave to what expectations we placed on ourselves. Given that it didnt matter, we wouldnt have said anything to each other, save maybe a rude comment if one of us was having a paticularly bad day. Why? because we felt the "need". But did we really NEED to? No, it was a "want". I wanted to be socially accepted. But if I were to go home and tell my Mother of this, she would say that I NEEDED to say excuse me. and this illustrates my point. We have completely lost all concept of Needs and Wants in our lives. Example.
Ever played Tetris? Imagine for one moment, that as you made the lines connect, instead of disappearing into Tetris Heaven, they stayed there, and you had to continue building upon the levels. The same is true of our society. We started at a base level, and the more pieces of technology that fill our screen, the higher our standard of living has become. Why is this a problem? Let your pieces stack up to the top of the screen and you shall find that the game is over. You have to start all over again. Thus is one of the problems of Welfare, and this leaves us begging the question, "Where does this all end?" How do we know when we stop helping and start hurting? How do we know we are helping at all? Should we help?
It started out from a mistake. And it has caused me to open up my eyes to some of the bigger ones that I have been making. Those would simply be the fact that I have failed to care, and failed to think things through to completion. But I have offered up opinions when I should have been silent, for a seer does not speak. Save only unless he is asked. You didnt ask for this, so once again, I am opinionated. Loudmouthed. So tell me, those of you who are still reading this (bless you). Should we help? are we hurting? How do we know?